This is Not How It Was Supposed to Be...

Don't worry, I have a passport and tools and devices hidden across the globe in selected locations.
Or there's always Skype.

lol.

Hi Tony,
If there are issues that you have difficulty coming to terms with,there's always the possibility that at some point that you are not aware of,your unconscious decided to dissociate to save you from pain,and simply has not stopped doing so in difficult situations,it,s always worth asking it to stop doing this.

Andrew,
I was trying to do some six-step reframing the other day (thanks Jason). One thing I'm realizing is the fact that all behaviors have a purpose. They may not have a meaning, but they have a purpose. The only purpose I can think of for self-defeating behaviors, like sabotaging a job, for example, would be to open me up for the possibility of doing something else. To free me up. I could be wrong, though.

Quite true,all behaviours do have a purpose,but often in parts work,it turns out that some part of the mind is trying to accomplish this purpose in a way which is no longer useful,and which the person is consciously unaware of.

Andrew,
I was trying to do some six-step reframing the other day (thanks Jason). One thing I'm realizing is the fact that all behaviors have a purpose. They may not have a meaning, but they have a purpose. The only purpose I can think of for self-defeating behaviors, like sabotaging a job, for example, would be to open me up for the possibility of doing something else. To free me up. I could be wrong, though.

Could be. I had an interesting experience recently while in the process of switching careers from my previous business to my new one (still ongoing). To make a quick buck I thought I would do some marketing for my previous business and use the money to promote my new business. Made logical sense but I soon found it absolutely hell and started procrastinating etc. I couldn't understand what was going on. After a few weeks of tormenting myself, it dawned on me that I was trying to promote the very business I was trying to ditch! Something in me knew that it would delay my real goals if I got bogged down in unrelated work, even if financially it might be less risky.