And how you think others would react to it effect you from having your fun?

I mean like, everyone says "let's have fun" but fun is a very abstract word and can mean completely different shit to different people. And that being the case, do you just do what's fun for you, or are you effected by how others judge you based on your actions?

Maybe the effect you have on others contribute to the level of fun you achieve. I dont mean that you are too paranoid to have your own brand of fun but if I act in a manner that makes others feel uncomfortable then that will reduce my levels of fun to the point where my activity is not fun at all.

If you are asking, do I seek other peoples approval or acceptance to my fun, well, no, despite what I said above, it can be more fun to show people just how little you give a toss about their opinions and go the opposite way.

Maybe I can define what it means to me by saying that if I cause nervous excitment or feelings of jealousy in people who are too embarrased to come with me than that is fine (dancing, being lighthearted when others are stressing, making jokes at my own expense or starting up conversation with pretty girls). If my flavor of fun causes some genuine upset to people then that would make me sad (using inapropriate comments or picking my nose on the bus or making jokes at others expense).

I am off to a wedding tomorrow night and when surrounded by my judgemental family and old/ex friends there will panic and anxiety as all the wall flowers watch and tut at those who are free enough to dance and smile. No doubt I will be one of the first on the dance floor and for every shake of the head and judgemental view, I will receive them as lacking in their own confidence and lack of expression. It will only fuel my moves and warm my heart that I am not them but I am so fukin happy!

Is there something on your mind?

Thanks

Matt